Sunday, April 28, 2019

Staying the course

I watched this video which popped up in my notifications the other day because I subscribe to the channel. I discovered K. Moon several months ago and liked what she had to say because it feels true for me. It's funny how synchronicity puts certain information in our paths that is meaningful to us or gives us answers that we are seeking at that time. I've decided to write about the information contained in this video and how it has helped me to reflect on my own process. Writing this is therapy for me and I hope it might also help another who reads it.

K. Moon says that she is mainly a western astrologer but that she sometimes channels messages that she gets from spirit about twin flames. I had almost given up watching any videos about twin flames but this video had a compelling title, "Urgent message for twin flames", and I felt it held something important for me. I wasn't disappointed. Her words are beautiful and I was moved to tears especially when she spoke about how hard the role of the masculine twin flame is.

The video is a message to twins about the state of the collective twin flame mission. The main message of the video is to explain why there seem to be so many twin flames these days. She says that many twin flames, about 30,000, have abandoned the mission due to the the fact that union wasn't happening in the traditional 3D ways. She says that some twins agreed to come together in the traditional way such as marriage, children, living together, buying a house together etc. but others agreed not to come together physically and to do the mission in spiritual but not physical union. She says that those who have left the path have not done so without this having a significant impact on them. She does not explain what she means by this. In their place new twin flames have been awakened to make up the numbers necessary to continue the mission.

This video came at a time when I was feeling disillusioned with the twin flame journey. I was feeling tired and like I couldn't take any more and just wanted to quit. I've been on this journey since September 2011 when I met the person I believe to be my twin for the first time in the physical. Although I had intuitions about this journey beforehand, I felt sceptical that such a thing could happen to me because I'm just an ordinary person, not beautiful or special in any way. This scepticism has never really left me despite the signs and synchronicities, dreams and intuitions and the immense love I feel for this other person that I barely know and that has never left me since I first acknowledged it. In truth, I know that it has always been with me. Even before I knew anything about my twin, I felt him. I communicated with him when I did something good in my life. I guess I was talking to his higher self with my higher self because my conscious mind had no explanation for what I was doing.

But despite the great love I have for this person, I never saw any strong 3D acknowledgment from him that he recognised our connection. In fact there were plenty of signs but nothing that I couldn't explain away with my scepticism. Perhaps it was just my imagination, wishful thinking. Perhaps I'm deluded. Perhaps he is a player, or a horrible person that gets pleasure out of tormenting people. But then I surmised that such people are usually selfish and shallow and easily bored, so he surely
would have moved onto another victim by now. I explored all possibilities because I knew that if I spoke to someone about it, which I had tried to do in the past, they would have quite likely implied one or other of those possibilities, because in the society I was born into, people do not expect magical things to happen. Magical things only happen in the movies.

Despite this disillusionment and cynicism, I have not abandoned the twin flame mission. There are two reasons for this. One is that I cannot abandon the mission because I can't stop loving my twin. It's impossible. The other is that I had a dream about my twin in which I asked him if he had annulled our marriage. He didn't answer me in the dream but since then I have had 3D real world contact which is very difficult for me to ignore. This contact has given me a sense of security, a feeling of safety and support that I have not had since this journey began. It has given me the strength to carry on and to follow wherever it leads.

The problem for me and many other twin flames, especially those that the twin flame community has labelled as the "divine feminine counterpart", is that we have been programmed by society to expect a traditional relationship to come from the twin flame union. But twin flames have come to the planet to bring a new template for relationships. These relationships are based on unconditional love.

In the video K. Moon explains the universal mission of twin flames as it was revealed to her. She says that:

"Twins are a very particular type of lightworker soul that has been split into two bodies, instead of incarnating in one body, for the purpose of becoming conduits of unconditional love for the planet and by channeling this love for one another because the soul is tethered together by love, that's the glue that holds it together, they ground this love onto the planet and the beings on the planet, thus raising the vibration of the planet.
The journey the lightworkers known as twin flames go through to come back together with the other half of their soul, is a journey that forces us to consistently choose love over fear, to stay open when we'd otherwise shut down, and to let love win even when we feel despair, betrayal, frustration and other darker human emotions common on the Earth plane. By finding our way back to love for our twin or by finding our way toward our twin no matter what life calls on us to overcome we're walking demonstrations and energetic conduits of unconditional love for everyone we come in contact with.
As you know, if you're a twin flame this journey is not easy. It's really hard to remain in a vibration of unconditional love in the face of an absent or unawakened twin and this has caused drops in vibration for many twins, in particular those who identify as "chasers" or who identify as divine feminines.
The job of the divine feminine aspect of that soul in a twin flame union is to hold the vibration of unconditional love, while the job of the divine masculine aspect is to do the energetic transmutation. What that means is that the divine feminine is meant to be holding this vibration of unconditional love like a lighthouse, an energetic beacon, that consistently calls her divine masculine forward toward the energy that the planet is meant to be moving toward. That's really difficult to do as a divine feminine on a planet that is soaked and immersed in such challenging inverted patterns of patriarchy and masculinity and subjugation, domination. These are things that as a divine feminine staying in that vibration of unconditional love, both when this is where the planet's at and what your divine masculine needs to transmute, is hard. 
On the divine masculine side it's also hard. They are going through the process of becoming all of that darker masculine energy that the planet has become immersed in. They take it in, they become it. They put it out though their bodies and their experiences. They transmute it and then they transcend it. For a being that is pure love-light consciousness, can you imagine what that must be like to have to step into so much pain, so much toxicity, only to have to become it knowing that's not who you really are on some level and then transmute and then transcend it?  
Both tasks are incredibly difficult to do in the 3D realm so in some cases both twins have moved into those heavier 3D patterns of inverted masculinity and are doing transmutational work instead of the divine feminine holding the space of unconditional love, she's stepped out of that space and now she is transmuting these darker energies right alongside her divine masculine, most likely in separation from him. 
Others have exercised their free will and walked away from the mission of unconditional love altogether with no plans to return to it because it was just hard. This is hard to do and without enough information, insight, guidance and support it can be really difficult to continue forward in the face of so much pain."

If we look at the first part of this quote, I resonate deeply with what K. Moon is saying here. If we are speaking in terms of labels, I knew I was a "lightworker" back in the early nineties. I had always known I was here to do a job but I only found out that there were lots of us and that we had a name at that time. The twin flame label only came into my awareness after I had already met my twin. I had only read about soulmates before that. It makes sense to me that twin flames are lightworkers. Any being who is working to bring love and light to the planet could be called a lightworker and twin flames' whole purpose is to love another person completely, regardless of what they say or what they do, what their beliefs are or what their politics are, the mistakes they've made in the past or the choices they are making in the present.

When K. Moon speaks about twin flames needing to choose love over fear, stay open instead of shutting down and let love win even when we feel despair or other dark emotions, I know what she is talking about. I have had to overcome all of these and more. I run away and say "no more!" but then love transmutes the pain and I am once again able to feel the ecstasy of the soul connection with my twin.

My love for my twin will continue, I know, but the disillusionment I spoke of stems from the unfulfilled desire that pulls me towards wanting to be in physical union with him. The love I feel for him makes me want to show him even though I know it is possible. It's a natural human desire but one that I have had to tame and subdue. Many twins are in this situation so I am not unique. It is the desire of the soul to return to wholeness and unity.

To see my twin with another is very painful, but this shows me that I still have work to do to heal and transmute negative emotions regarding self-love and self-worth. I do not need the approval of another to feel whole. I do not need to be or do anything to be worthy of love.

K. Moon says she was told during the channelling that a total of 177,000 twin flames are currently on the Earth in this particular timeline. She said she asked for confirmation of the number and was given a sign that appeared to confirm the number. At the end of the video, she uses a gematria tool to give numerology messages and encourages us to do the same to see if there are any 177 synchronicities. I entered my twin's name and my name together into the tool and got the numbers It's just a little thing but it made me smile.

Thank you for my healing. I'm really beginning to understand it now.

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