Everything I thought I knew has gone

I don't know anything anymore

I hang suspended in the unreal 

Riding the pendulum

Dark to light and back again

Fear comes in new shades

Ancient wounds reveal themselves

Rage pushes outwards

Remorse pulls inwards

Momentary peace, then repeat

I search the waves for a sign

But see only white peaks on blue swell

I go back inside 

The lighthouse is dark

Undergoing repair