Be the light

 

Old Nautilia

 

I have to say that Primo Cova kept strictly to his word, to my great admiration. Moreover, he was defender, lawyer and all-round advocate of Feíta’s conduct everywhere he went. As for me, I feared her outbursts would get her stoned to death in Marineda. It is true that there was plenty of talk, feathers were ruffled, and the liberated woman was rightly branded an insolent tomboy. But as a major point in her favour, and despite the wicked and shameful interpretation to which her escapades lent themselves, the general verdict was not to assign any sinister intention to Feíta's brilliant ideas for now. The benevolent campaign of the at times wild and slanderous Primo Cova must have contributed to this relative indulgence of the public. Feíta’s natural ease, the clarity of her words and her impetuous manner dispelled shadows and allayed suspicions. The most pessimistic of the naysayers predicted only that she would be irretrievably lost among the risks and hazards of the unusual life she had chosen. Primo Cova took up cudgels on this point too. “The girl won’t be lost,” he assured, unperturbed, as though he had the gift of prophecy, “because her natural intuition and the world she’s going to move in will teach her to be cautious. Besides, for now the girl cares little for men or cupid’s arrow. What’s on her mind is the desire to study, to learn, to revel in and flaunt her knowledge. Don’t you see how she walks, like a Caifás[i], with her short hair, boots the size of boats, blackened fingernails and petticoats awry?   Are you certain she will fall into disrepute?  Well, I propose a bet. I’ll wager that before this peruchón[ii] is lost, five or six of her social circle who live the old way, who don’t go out alone or give lessons, will be irretrievably lost. Who will play for a thousand realitos[iii]!” Since it was my territory where Feíta was making her first foray, and despite the benign atmosphere that surrounded her, I felt so awkward that I hid in my room. I stopped going to the Neira tertulia[iv] and even avoided meeting Don Benicio. Be careful: stay in your hole, mouse. Let’s not risk our beloved tranquility for anything. Meanwhile, Feíta was breaking down barriers and could not be contained. Morning and evening, she could be seen walking the streets, free as a bird, smug, fearless and dishevelled, willfully disregarding the rules of ladies’ grooming. One might say she was an outsider who had never been to Marineda due to the eagerness and haste with which she explored the city, boldly traversing the most dangerous alleyways, visiting the countryside and surrounding areas, examining monuments and even sketching some graceful Romanesque arches and fifteenth century houses that were still preserved in the old Nautilia[v]. If she met an acquaintance off the beaten path who offered to accompany her, the girl would refuse without excuses or acquiescence.

      “I am delighted to keep my own company,” she would say, with such pleasure radiating from her green eyes that it was only right to take her at her word and leave her to indulge her whim.  

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[i] Joseph ben Caiaphas, the Jewish High Priest, said in the New Testament to have been involved in a plot to kill Jesus.

[ii] Galician word for marimacho (butch; a woman with masculine appearance or mannerisms).

[iii] The real and the realito were coins in circulation in Spain from the fourteenth to the mid nineteenth century.

[iv] Social gathering, where people meet to talk about current affairs, the arts and other topics of the day.

[v] According to the edition by María Angeles Ayala, published by Catedra (2019), this refers to the old city of La Coruña.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shadow Work

I am so, so angry and I can't pin it down to one thing. I think it's because of this fake pandemic and the fact that I can't deal with how gullible people are. But mainly it's because all of this is preventing me from grieving the loss of my dear Dad. I miss him so much and I'm scared because all of the responsibility to care for my family is on my shoulders now. I'm angry because I want the space to feel sad, to cry and to nurture myself but I can't because there's so much to do. And I want to feel happy and joyful because I know it's the Great Awakening and that things will get better but I can't feel that joy. I'm stuck in the doldrums and everything is heavy and I don't have the strength to lift it. It is that ... a sadness. A heavy, heavy sadness. It's got so big because I didn't have time to feel it and give it the attention it deserved. Now it's so huge I can't ignore it anymore. But I want the world to go away because people expect me to carry on and be normal when all I want to do is to hide away in a cave like a big, fat bear.

Another animal sign. This time the bear. A couple of days ago it was the praying mantis. First a baby one on the wall where I was sat, then another on the long grass I was cutting. Both rare white ones. The third one was when I was thinking about the first two, suddenly a big, beautiful green one with hypnotic eyes appeared on my Facebook feed. The praying mantis asks you to stop and take time to look within, to connect with spirit. I have been suffering because I have felt like my connection was lost. When I tried to meditate, all I could feel was anger at everyone and everything and so I ran away from it. I didn't have time for that. There was too much to do.

My Medicine Cards book says of the bear,

"The strength of Bear medicine is the power of introspection. It lies in the West on the great medicine wheel of life. Bear seeks honey, or the sweetness of truth, within the hollow of an old tree. In the winter, when the Ice Queen reigns and the face of death is upon the Earth, Bear enters the womb-cave to hibernate, to digest the year's experience. It is said that our goals reside in the West also. To accomplish the goals and dreams that we carry, the art of introspection is necessary.

To become like Bear and enter the safety of the womb-cave, we must attune ourselves to the energies of the Eternal Mother, and receive nourishment from the placenta of the Great Void. The Great Void is the place where all solutions and answers live in harmony with the questions that fill our realities. If we choose to believe that there are many questions to life, we must also believe that the answers to these questions reside within us. Each and every being has the capacity to quiet the mind, enter the silence, and know.

Many tribes have called this space of inner-knowing the Dream Lodge, where the death of the illusion of physical reality overlays the expansiveness of eternity. It is in the Dream Lodge that our ancestors sit in Council and advise us regarding the alternative pathways that lead to our goals. This is the power of Bear.

Summer solstice 2020

Happy summer solstice!

I just did a zoom meeting with 26 strangers located mainly here in Spain. We did a shamanic feather meditation which was wonderful. It was to bring love and light from the higher realms to Spain and the rest of the Earth. People commented on their experiences during the visualisation. I saw Spain covered in a layer of gold.

Then we did another guided meditation where we were taken by a animal guide  - mine was a black panther - underground to meet the Spanish Goddess of the Earth.  She told me her name was Eufelia (or Eufemia?), but I also heard the name Aurora. She gifted me with water. I gave her my pink rose quartz. She told me I had lived in Spain before in 1300. She told me to plant more roses in my garden and to remove the thistles. In the garden representing Spain, it was full of cherry, olive, lemon, orange trees. I asked what I could do to help Spain and she told me to remove the brambles.

Project Blue Beam

Magenta talks about a dream she had which I don't particularly resonate with. But she does talk about the Cabal plans and she mentioned Project Blue Beam. She's mentioned it before recently but said that it wasn't on our timeline. However, in this video she says it is now showing as a potential.

This is interesting to me because over the years I've had a recurring dream where there was an alien invasion. The most memorable of these dreams was where aliens were landing in ships and quickly hunting us down and rounding us up. I don't remember people being killed but it was pretty scary. I managed to get away and I was trying to get to where my son was on the map. I say map because that how it seemed. I knew that he was in another part of the map. I also knew that my significant other was somewhere and I needed to find him too. I call this person my significant other because when I had this dream I hadn't met the person that I now refer to as my twin because I was still living in the UK then. I didn't know him but I knew he was somewhere on the map, in this dream reality that was meant to be Earth. It seemed like we were lost because there were so many of these technologically superior aliens and they were everywhere. But then suddenly other ships came out of  the sky and landed. Within no time they took control and stopped the other aliens from carrying out their plans for us. The most vivid image was of one of the benevolent aliens standing an a raised grass verge. He was extremely tall, muscular and warrior-like. He was dressed in what looked like some kind of military uniform and was carrying a long weapon like a spear. He was striking not only because of his size but because he had blue skin and long hair that I remember as being plaited like cornrows. But what I remember most about this giant was the energy he radiated, or perhaps he spoke to me telepathically. What I felt was that he was there to protect me and that we were all safe. The message was that the other aliens were not going to be allowed to carry out their agenda. They had overstepped the mark and a higher authority was interceding on our behalf. I remember feeling that everything was going to be alright before I woke up.

Magenta mentions that we are all a team and that we are connected telepathically.

World Peace Prayer

A prayer for us all so needed at this time. Lisa Renee says to wear the 12D shield. This is a short visualisation that can be found below. It's a meditation to create a shield around you to protect the aura from negative interference. If you are empathic you will have noticed the increased fear and anger that is strong in the collective consciousness. Those who are doing light work are sensitive to the thoughts that pass through their minds and that they are not always their own. It is important to protect ourselves and to practice what some call energetic hygiene. Personally, I didn't use to do this as I felt it to be acknowledging that the dark had power over me, but during these times, where there is an amplification in the intensity of the negative forces as their desperation to hold on to power is becoming so acute, I have felt a clear benefit in shielding myself and my loved ones.

With love, light and blessings to you.

Look at this https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/12_Practices_of_Self_Awareness